"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Friday, April 29, 2011

I think Rachel is doing better right now.  She cried for an hour this morning which was really tough - Abigail watched clips of the Royal Wedding while I tended to Rachel.  (see? I didn't have to watch it in the middle of the night - you crazy people:) ) Ethan was interested in the horses for a little while. We had plans to go out this morning but I had to cancel them.  It feels like we are heading into more spells and I really do not like that.  It makes me feel sick to my stomach.

I was reminiscing a bit this morning.  The year I turned twenty-one was a very painful time for me.  I remember that I stayed awake two consectutive nights to read through the book of Psalms - and I didn't just read them but I also wrote down the verses that stuck out for me.  I felt like Scripture was my lifeline in the night.  I think now is another one of those times.  I started reading the Psalms again this morning.  And I am also listening to Fernando Ortega's cd "The Shadow of Your Wings".  I listened to this cd over and over when we first got the ultrasound diagnosis.  It is so calming for me.  I'm kind of hoping it will be for miss Rachel here too - maybe she remembers it from when she was in my womb.   

"Sing to Jesus
Honor His name
Sing of His faithfulness
Pouring His life out unto death

Come, you weary
And He will give you rest
Come you who mourn
Lay on His breast"


Jennifer said...

You don't know me - but I check your blog EVERY day to get updates, ever since Rachel was born. As a mother, my heart breaks for you, and I am in awe of your strength. I know that you probably just think of it as survival. But I think of it as strength and courage. I pray that God wraps his arms around you this weekend, gives you peace and comfort. And rest... God knows you all need REST... May the scripture bring you the peace you so long for and deserve this weekend.

Kathy and Carl said...

Rest in the Psalms and the music in this time. May it be soothing and healing for your soul.

Sending much love.

Janet said...

My heart is so hurting for you.
There are so many scriptures in Psalms that are so encouraging.May Jesus carry you as you go through the Psalms.He loves you so much.He wants to hear you call out to Him.Tell Him how you feel...He is our hope & strength.
Much love & prayers
Janet M