Ethan can be so very sweet sometimes. Just a little while ago, as I was cleaning up the kitchen, I suddenly felt so sad - so broken. I want my little girl so much. I tried to muffle my sobs so my kids who were playing in the next room, wouldn't hear. But Ethan heard. With my second or third sob, I heard him saying to Abigail that he had to go. He ran into the kitchen and said, "mommy? what is it?" I told him that I missed Rachel and he gave me a long hard hug.
oh, there's so much more I want to write yet. It's been so long. We are just beginning our first day together just the four of us, after 25 days of being with our families. And I think with the silence, everything is crashing in on me again this morning. Dave goes back to work tomorrow too. I thought I was ready - I have so many things on my 'To Do List"....but now it seems a bit meaningless. Please pray for me. Thank-you.