"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Just a very quick note to say that our day with Rachel was a good one! Amazingly, she bounced back from this one and she was her happy self again.  wow. I tried to nap this afternoon though and felt too anxious, which makes me a little nervous about the night.  And she is sleeping more than usual again this evening.  I have no idea what this night will bring. But I thank God for the good that was in this day.  Rare treats - like getting to bake muffins with the kids, and reading them new stories from the library....it made me realize how much I have missed them.  ok, Rachel is crying.  Thank-you for the notes!! Good-night.


fiona said...

the heart break is so painful dave and kendra. my heart just aches for you all, and for dear rachel in her times of suffering. we keep asking God for mercy and grace. we know that He is there. have you guys ever done any listening prayer? have you ever relived a 'spell' in your mind and then asked Jesus to show you where He was when rachel was struggling so? i don't know if this would be life giving or not, but i have found that many times, when i am distressed about something painful, when i go to that place and ask Jesus to reveal His presence to me, He does so. He says in His word that He NEVER leaves us or forsakes us, not you or rachel, ever. may the eyes of your heart see Him suffering with you.

please Jesus, in your mercy, may rachel not have to suffer another oxygen depleting episode in her precious body. defeat the work of our enemy. may rachel's remaining days with her family be full of warmth, smiles and beautiful memories. we pray in Your name.

Meredith said...

I was so sad to read that you had such a difficult night with her, so I was relieved for you to see this post. You are in our hearts and on our minds tonight.

Anonymous said...

Dear Dave and Kendra, I continue to check your blog daily. Your story inspires me, your faith encourages me and your daily struggle breaks my heart. I pray for all of you, you are close to my heart. Dear precious little Rachel, I pray for relief from your suffering. Precious Abby and Ethan, I pray for peace and protection. Dearest Kendra and Dave, I am telling God that it might be time to call his precious little child home so she can smile and dance and sing among heavenly flowers, where there is no more grasping for breath. I understand the horror of watching her suffer so and watching the troubled souls of your other two precious babies. We do not know God's ways or plans, but we do know He is not the author of this suffering. You can hear the depth of pain mixed with relief behind Christ's words on the cross, "It is finished." I am praying you will soon be able to say, "Her journey is finished." I know this will bring your suffering to a different level, but it will be yours and not Rachel's. She will be free. I am praying that God will keep the enemy far from you and your household. I am asking God to call us all urgently to prayer on your behalf when the enemy tries to trouble you. I am asking Him to stand with you in the day and in the night watches. I am asking Him to be a cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night, surrounding you with His visible presence, carrying you through the darkness just as He carried the Israelite. I am asking the Spirit to interpret your groaning when you have no words to call out. I am asking Him to provide immeasurably more than we can imagine. May God have mercy. May God hold you in the palm of his hand. God bless you.

stephseef said...

have prayed for you during this night and again this morning. trusting that on this Pentecost Sunday the Lord by His Spirit will meet you right where you are. Blessings from Wisconsin -