"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

The Zoo

We are doing ok, I think.  So often I marvel at how we go through these intense spells with Rachel, she almost dies and then almost immediately we have to carry on with normal stuff, work phone calls etc...It is necessary in many ways.  We just have to, I think, to stay sane! As usual, I find the impact of it hits a day or two later.  Rachel was doing better this morning and so we joined Ethan's preschool class in going to the zoo today.  Ethan rode there in the school bus with his classmates and we drove.  We had a bit of a nerve-wracking time between the lemurs and the gorillas, when it seemed to me that Rachel was having another spell.  She was just coming out of another sleep.  Of all the awkward places for this to happen, this was way up there!! But thankfully she was ok.  She is definetely muted today but she has given us several beautiful smiles too:)
With one of several Triceratops at the zoo...really, why are there so many of this one kind?? We spent most of the time with Grandma but Ethan rode the bus and we joined his class for lunch.


Carol said...

praying for you today.

fiona said...

oh my . . . so much suffering, so much pain, and so little respite and relief . . . may the Holy Spirit come and give sweet comfort to your broken hearts and anguished minds. He is your comforter, your shield, a place to hide when the storms rage, a resting place. may you find rest.

i am also thinking lots these days about rachel's upcoming birthday. one year old. so much has happened, you have lived far more than most of us will ever live with loving rachel's life, and grieving her passing that is yet to come. we love you so much.

Brenda Funk said...

I still think her bad breathing at the zoo had something to do with the tropical house we were in -- very humid, very warm, and it felt to me like there was not a whole lot of oxygen in the air. And she was sleeping covered up in her car seat.But yeah -- it sure was an awkward place, there didn't seem to be anyplace we could go with her.