We're doing ok today. Rachel is sleeping alot and eating very little - kind of the trend of the last few days. And we are holding her and riding this rollercoaster of emotions. I left this morning to get a few things from the house - I thought I might go crazy sitting around but once I was there, I was so anxious to get back. My stomach has been churning and I'm sleeping lightly, wondering all the time how she is doing. My eye has been twitching the last few days - maybe stress? We don't have any stress do we? God, help us to rest in you. I need your peace today.
Another set of Dave's aunt and uncles dropped in to visit today - thanks for the pizza! And for making us laugh - we needed that! And for praying with us before you left. And my mom is here - I am so very glad you are here Mom! Dave is working on his sermon today at home. Rachel is LOVEing her swing that a friend just lent us. Mom wants to hold her but she seems happier in it than in our arms right now...
I am not fighting to keep her, but I don't know if I will ever be ready to let her go either. This is SO HARD.
Alexander passed away at 1 am this morning. His parents said he 'waited' until they were asleep - and then he knew it was ok to go.
We are doing fine for baby clothes now! And I have lots of baby socks - one set was even knitted for her!! Thank-you for your generosity!