"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Saturday, October 23, 2010

We're alright

We're doing ok today.  Rachel is sleeping alot and eating very little - kind of the trend of the last few days.  And we are holding her and riding this rollercoaster of emotions.  I left this morning to get a few things from the house - I thought I might go crazy sitting around but once I was there, I was so anxious to get back.  My stomach has been churning and I'm sleeping lightly, wondering all the time how she is doing.  My eye has been twitching the last few days - maybe stress?  We don't have any stress do we? God, help us to rest in you.  I need your peace today. 

Another set of Dave's aunt and uncles dropped in to visit today - thanks for the pizza! And for making us laugh - we needed that! And for praying with us before you left.  And my mom is here - I am so very glad you are here Mom!  Dave is working on his sermon today at home.  Rachel is LOVEing her swing that a friend just lent us.  Mom wants to hold her but she seems happier in it than in our arms right now...

I am not fighting to keep her, but I don't know if I will ever be ready to let her go either.  This is SO HARD. 

Alexander passed away at 1 am this morning.  His parents said he 'waited' until they were asleep - and then he knew it was ok to go. 

We are doing fine for baby clothes now!  And I have lots of baby socks - one set was even knitted for her!! Thank-you for your generosity!  


Andrea said...

Kendra...I do not even pretend to fathom the emotions you and Dave are going through (and have been going through ever since you learned of Rachel's condition when she was in your womb). But I love the way you describe your journey on this blog. You bring me to tears everytime I come here -- whether it's tears of joy or tears of sorrow.

My heart goes out to you, and while we don't know each other all that well, please know that I think of you often.

Brenda Funk said...

Holding you up to our Father's arms in prayer constantly...no words to describe the many ways this is so hard, and so precious at the same time. Love you all! MOM

Anonymous said...

I 've had that eye twitch thing sometimes....stress, yes. I love the songs you share with us...may they continue to comfort you too. Thanks for letting us into your lives....talking to God about you all. Roselle