Dave and I both lay down with her this afternoon - while Dave's aunt Carol played with Ethan. (she was out from MB for a short visit) We didn't sleep. We just drank her in. I wanted to stay there forever, the feel of her breathing in and out, in our arms. This is her lying on our bed. (picture below) I also made some small hand impressions in clay that I had been meaning to make - I thought they could be hung on the Christmas tree. I made one for each of the Grandparents and for us.
God, give us courage. Give us peace. Help us to know in our hearts that 'all is well' even when our bodies feel so shaken. We wonder what this means. How many times will we go through this? Should we go back to the Flames House? But we have really missed our home...There are decisions to make and so much we don't know but we say "We trust you God. Our lives are in Your hands. Your timing is right. And we can trust You because you love us."