Dave's mom took the older two out to the playground this morning, and maybe on to the Big Arches. I thought I would write a quick update before Rachel needs my attention again. She has been very fussy this past week - maybe just usual baby stuff - but it has been hard on us. The nights are much too short and so it is a lifesaver to have Dave's mom here! Rachel still has a cough but is much better than she was last week. I have started noticing that her usual preemie clothes aren't fitting her and I am pretty sure her legs and arms have grown! Yeah! She is wearing a few outfits (still preemie) that I wasn't sure she would ever grow into. She may yet be able to wear some of Abigail's early clothes!
Yesterday we all went over to the Village Square pool. I walked around with Rachel. I had hoped to look around the library while everyone else swam but Rachel fussed till the last 10 minutes. One thing I struggle with is stranger's questions and yesterday it seemed tougher than usual. She was so bright-eyed and beautiful in pink and people are so drawn to babies. I wrote something about this awhile ago but I haven't posted it yet. I think maybe I will sometime soon because these situations have played a pretty large role in how I feel, think etc..Now I think I understand why many hurting people would rather lie than get caught up in a conversation where they have to explain it all again...
She's sleeping. I am going to go seep some tea and listen to some new music a friend recommended. Thanks Fiona:) And just breathe and be.
Jesus, you are my song in the night. My strength in the fire.