"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Rachel's Birthday

Thank-you to everyone who joined us on the 21st to honor sweet Rachel - whether you were with us at the park or with us in spirit. So many of you wore pink or yellow on that day! Thank-you for supporting us on a day that held such a mixture of feelings and memories.
In one of the Family Suites
We started the day with a visit to the Rotary Flames House. It felt strange to walk into that building again - as though it were our home from another lifetime - but it seemed so right and good to be there too. We visited with the staff for a bit. Oh, it was GOOD to hear other people remininsce about our girl - so healing for our hearts. They reminded us of things I had forgotten. How Rachel always wanted her soother upside down - and if you forgot she would promptly turn it around. They talked about her mischievious personality, and her smiles.  How bravely she lived her life.

oh how thankful we are for these people who loved our little girl......

After walking through the room where we first stayed - a few days after Rachel was born....we went to the sundeck area.  We brought two balloons - one pink and one yellow. We wrote messages on them for Rachel - telling her how much we missed her and loved her and how we are looking forward to being together again someday.  And then Ethan and Abigail let them go.  Ethan thought it was cool that they were going on a journey....and then how cool it was that his was faster than Abigail's;) I don't think I really understood the whole practice of letting balloons go until a few years ago. We were at the funeral service for our friend's son. And there was something about how those balloons drew our attention away from the ground, the pain and loss of now - to the sky. It felt very meaningful to do it on Monday as well.

I have to tell you one more thing that happened on her birthday.  We planted a flowering crab apple tree last year - a gift from Dave's mom, in honor of Rachel. We had heard that sometimes they don't flower the first year after transplanting but we cared for it lovingly and watched to see what it would do.  The whole week before her birthday we watched the buds growing...and the first buds began flowering right ON her birthday!!! Isn't that so beautiful?? 
This is what I posted on FB: Thank-you God for bringing so much beauty into our lives through Rachel and for comforting and encouraging us today!


Valerie Ruth said...

so bittersweet. i was with you in spirit.

Kari Clark said...

God-magic! No one works like Him.

I am glad to see Him so active in your grief still. I thought of you guys often as we walked the halls of the Flames House. The joy on Rachel's face in these pictures is priceless and I am sure is magnified a thousand-fold now!

Brenda Funk said...

I see I have a few posts to catch up on....loved the idea of letting balloons go on Rachel's birthday. So exciting for Ethan and Abigail too.