"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Her 21st month birthday...

......is today. And I miss her so much. There aren't any words for this kind of missing.  And yet at the same time, I am feeling lighter in my spirit than I have felt in so long.  God is helping me to open my hands, to trust Him. Because his gifts for us will be good. I don't know what they will look like and I don't have to have it all figured out.  And after feeling so heavy in my body, my spirit, my heart, for so very very long, it is strange and wonderful to Let Go..... 

I don't think for a minute that our grieving is done, or the hurt won't resurface with a vengeance.  I'm quite sure it will. But I am going to rest here in this moment, this day.  And it is good.  He is Good.

So....thank-you if you have been praying for us....

2 comments:

Kathy and Carl said...

Praise God that He continues to hold you and to carry you as you heal. He is good and it's comforting to rest in that....

Brenda Funk said...

Very happy to hear that even as you are continuing to miss Rachel, your heart is feeling lighter. God is walking close with you on this grief journey!