This is a picture I am hoping to include in Thank-you cards to a few Medical Personnel involved in Rachel's Story. One place I want to drop it off will be the Ultrasound Clinic where we heard the detailed description of all Rachel's problems. Another is my OB's office. And yet another is at our family Doctor's office. He has not even met Rachel. In fact, I have not even spoken with him since that fateful day when he broke the news about Rachel's brain abnormality. But I know he will remember. He was my doctor for several years (and before that, my parents). He referred me to a specialist after the diagnosis. He encouraged me in our decision to continue the pregnancy, told me stories of others who did the same. I always wanted to bring her in and it never did happen...it was a bit of a trip from home but I still wished we had tried to do it.
I'll be seeing him next week. I made an appointment for the kids because they haven't seen a doctor since they were babies. And I am really looking forward to telling him about Rachel!
I hope this picture can go up on a few bulitin boards. Most likely in some of these offices, it will get lost among all the other smiling baby pictures but maybe someone will see her smiling face and instead of just feeling sad at her short life - mabye they might also wonder about the impact she made on someone's life? I remember scanning these bulitin boards myself for any sign of babies that had died - I guess because I wanted to feel less alone in our journey. And maybe someone else in the situation we were once in ourselves, will see her picture and wonder...Maybe.
Maybe someone will even point her out, and say "See. The news they heard was devasting for them too...but look at this beautiful little girl they were able to meet. Think of what Good they might have missed out on, had they chosen the other way." Of course, it would never happen this way - medical personal have to be very careful how they talk about this sort of thing. But....even if just for the people who knew us at the beginning and heard the awful news and knew our choice - maybe, just maybe her smiling beautiful face will remind them that the bad news we heard WAS NOT THE END. Maybe???