Rachel is really back to her spunky little self today. I know she is happy when she crosses her tiny little ankles and pumps her long slender legs up and down. And when she bobs her body up and down in her chair. And when she gives us BIG toothless grins. I feel like we have reached the light at the end of a long dark tunnel. Her feeds have been better too. She is able to drink a little more at a time now. I am trying to just enjoy her right now and not think about the next difficult stretch that might come. These last few weeks have been so tough and I think I am still in a bit of a fog because of it. Hoping to come out of it a bit more today. I still feel so weak, so unable to carry the demands of this journey alone. God we look to you today for Grace, for your mercy.