Rachel was so close to having a "heart spell" this morning. I had the medication out and called Dave already to give him a heads up and watched her anxiously for ten very long minutes. Finally she pinked up again and I went back to cleaning the kitchen. But I'm not sure I have recovered yet. How do I go back to doing 'normal' stuff after something like this? I have been telling people that I think I have reached a new stage in this journey. I have been more 'at peace' with how life has turned out. But today that is being sorely tested again. My heart hurts.
We're playing the kids cd again this morning called "GT and the Halo express." The kids love this CD and I love how they are learning Bible verses with the songs. There is so much in this CD about trusting God when we are afraid. There's a part in the story where this boy is afraid of a bully and the angels have been instructing him in what the Bible says about fear. And then God steps in - our Defender and he says these words in a Strong, Deep voice. This verse (and song) struck a chord deep in me and gave me so much comfort. I had this picture of God being right beside me, holding me up, and caring for Rachel too.
"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10