"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm,
and carry them close to his heart, and shall gently lead those that are with young." Isaiah 40:11

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Yesterday

Yesterday I went to another ultrasound apointment.  Saw Rachel again.  I saw her little fist and arm and her curled up legs.  I feel her movements alot these days!  Maybe it's because she's little and has more room to move around.  She's roughly 3 lbs right now.  I am 34 weeks.  The Doctor I spoke to guesses that she will be 4-5 lbs full term.  She says this might be related with her condition.  So....preemie clothes....It's so hard to go into stores looking for clothes that she might not even need...or to look for an outfit that I might bury my daughter in...I thought it would be easier as we neared the end.  But in some ways, the reality of our situation is hitting harder.  I am so glad for good friends and family to face this with. 


Yesterday night I went through my baby clothes, looking for newborn stuff.  This was tough. Looking at all the cute outfits that Rachel will likely never wear.  Abigail was so excited that we were looking for stuff for baby Rachel. I so wish things were different than they are.  But this is where we are...And I keep going, keep thinking ahead of what else needs to be done...One day at a time.

4 comments:

sandrasiemens said...

Oh, Kendra, if only I were closer and could run over and give you a big hug right now! Thinking of you, praying, loving....Sandi

Angela said...

I would totally be game for some coffee, conversation, tears, and hugs right now. Thinking of you every day!

Valerie Ruth said...

sears has good preemie clothes. i've been thinking a lot about baby Rachel lately. do the kids know that she'll be sick?

Erin said...

Oh Kendra, I am praying for you daily.
Give me a call when you have time we can get together for some tea :O)
Love Erin