Yesterday on Rachel's 5 1/2 month birthday:
- I didn't feel like doing anything. So nothing much got done...
- A delivery man dropped off a box of chocolates, a gift from friends in MB - and I was so moved by this kind and thoughtful gesture. I cried and it was a good cry. The note on the box read "Let the richness of these chocolates remind you of the richness of God's love".
- I had a nice walk to get Ethan from playschool.
- I had a nice walk to get Ethan from playschool.
- I felt angry later about a stranger's comments about Rachel. (thankfully these experiences are few and far between)
- We had some afternoon respite so I lay down by myself for an hour and listened to new music - Red Mountain Church and Sandra McCracken - and cried - and it was balm for my soul.
- We had a wonderful visit with friends who recently moved to Winnipeg. They were out for the weekend.
- We ate yet another wonderful meal, given to us by a friend.
- Our regular respite worker couldn't make it tonight so a friend came over to do the night shift. And she brought me dried mango. yum!! Thank-you!!
Today:
- I am tired. I have a cold. I couldn't sleep after 3:30am because I was bugged again about what that stranger had said and how she said it. Then I took over Rachel's care at 5:45 and she's been fussy. But now, as I look over what I wrote - that one irritating conversation seems far less significant in light of all the ways that God provided for us yesterday. Sometimes I need to write these things down in order to see more clearly. Thank-you God for all the blessings of yesterday.
May Jesus comfort your heart & mind.I will pray Jesus will take that hurt of whatever that person said.You & your family is so much loved.Be in HIS peace.
ReplyDeleteMuch love & prayers
Janet M
You don't know me, but I'm a regular reader of your blog and I pray for you. Your in-laws were my Youth leaders MANY years ago and I so appreciated them. Recently I re-connected with your mom-in-law via facebook. I am so encouraged by your honesty and have often wanted to tell you but haven't. Today I read about the "stranger's comment" and i was irritated "with" you, yet also just appreciated how you expressed it. normal feelings go on in the midst of difficult times. Your expression of your life with Rachel has brought tender thoughts and prayers from me for you, David, your family. Thanx for your honesty and I pray God's strength will keep you and yours in the palm of His hand. He is good and it's beautiful to see how you see and express that beauty.
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