Rachel is still 4 pounds. She is one month old and she is lighter than she was the day she was born. She wears the same clothes she did one month ago...and they are no smaller on her today. Her legs and arms are so thin - she has no extra fat. She is not filling out in the ways that other babies do. These things hit home for me in a new way tonight and it makes me sad to look at my baby girl and know that her body is not growing. It is like she is barely holding on to this world. But she is warm in my arms now. She breathes and makes a contented sigh because she has eaten and she knows love. I know I should lay her down but I want to sit here for awhile...
(typed with one hand at 2am)
(typed with one hand at 2am)
She is absolutely beautiful. I am praying for you guys through this hard time that God will give you peace and joy for every day you have with your precious daughter.
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What a beautiful picture!
ReplyDeleteI love this photo - those bright eyes and long eyelashes! Sending kisses and cuddles to sweet little Rachel.
ReplyDeleteShe is so precious.I just noticed too how long her eyelashes are.
ReplyDeleteI can tell how loving you both are with your children.Rachel will feel that warmth of your love right till the end..Jesus be with you & give you strength with each new day.He is holding you too.
In prayer
Janet M
Aw....she has her eyes open....so very sweet.....
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful picture of her.
ReplyDeleteShe is the cutest little doll baby
I have been reading your blog for some time now.
And I just want you to know you're in my thoughts and prayers
I, too, was struck by the beauty of this picture, and again, by the beauty of Rachel! Thank you for writing this post. I'm sure at times, posts like this are difficult to write as it is personal and strong emotions are connected. Hopefully, it is a little therapeutic as well, and helps you to process what's going on. Posts like these help me to understand a little better how to pray for you. So, I want you to know that I'm praying for you and love you guys lots!
ReplyDeleteYes, just sit and hold her and listen to her contented sighs.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great picture of Rachel. We keep praying for you guys.
ReplyDeleteLove the picutes, she is incredible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteLove you and are thinking of your family often
Mel
wow - i love the new picture. Just sweet.
ReplyDeletei just read your fathers day post today & i wanted to tell you that i love... l.o.v.e... the way you bathe your words in grace. i know that the Father must be giving you wisdom in these days. Even though i don't know you or your family, it is achingly beautiful to watch another follower of Jesus choose to lay it all down & allow themselves to be used.
Your little girl is sure a wonder. i'm so grateful you chose to share her in this way.
That is such a beautiful picture! Thanks for sharing your journey on this blog... you and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Lorissa
ReplyDeleteA few people have said to me you write so well -- they think that someday you will have to write a book. Guess we'll see. Beautiful thoughts and pictures. Thanks again. Love MOM
ReplyDeletekendra, i want to bless you in holding that little girl as much as your mother's heart desires!! love her up. forget the housecleaning and keep your food intake as simple as you can. just focus on love!!
ReplyDeleteJust hold her as much as possible. Housework can wait. Just hold her & focus on every inch of her precious body. She is beautiful!! Some day...oh some day;):) Tears..and then JOY! Praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteShe is beautiful. I pray that every moment with her is etched on your brain, and that those memories sustain you, along with God's love and Grace, through the coming months.
ReplyDeleteRachel is breathtaking...what a beautiful little girl.
ReplyDeleteI ache for your pain. Praying for you. Love you.
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